Doorway to Heaven (Age: 14)

I stood there all by myself,
With no one around to see me
To comfort me
No one showing me they care.
My eyes are flooded with tears,
Streaming down uncontrollably.
Nothing can stop them.
Nothing will.
My heart will continue bleeding.
I will suffer in silent pain.
I have nowhere to go to
No one to turn to.
All alone in the pitch darkness
Thinking of ways to end this misery.
The blade in my hands felt warm,
Welcoming in a wrenched sick way.
Memories of the past rushed through me
As I plunged it deep into my soul.
A smile spread across my face
As the hard cement ground
Slowly covered with my thick, red blood.
My life is pouring out of me
From this scarlet river, to the lifeless puddle.
I looked up to heaven and smiled.
I'm finally going to a place
I've always been dying to go to.