Mood Swings (Age: 15)

This is so fucked up, I swear.
It's like I'm on a swing
Constantly going
Up and down, up and down.

Somedays, I'm in such a good mood.
I'd walk around singing,
Joking with my friends.
I'd have my head in the clouds
With the sun.
Whatever I do is fun and interesting.
I'd always have a smile on my face.

But then the fuckin' stupid mood swings would kick in.
The swing would swoop way way down.
Fuck, it'll just fuckin' break off.
Everyone around me would be so annoying!
Everything they say pisses me off!
Fuck, everything pisses me off!
FUCK!!!

All my bottled up emotions would explode.
My anger will be uncontrollable.
The thoughts of suicide constantly crosses my mind.
Everything I think.
Every little thought
Is negative.

One day I won't be able to take it.
One day everything will fuckin' explode.
One day I'll crack and do what I never had guts to do.
One day suicide would not be just a thought.